Wednesday 30 November 2011

About a boy...


Minute by minute you broke him down,
Day by day you made him look like your personal clown.
You bullied him when he needed you the most,
You bullied him when he pleaded you the most.

And what did you get? Say it again,
Oh yes those few moments of amusement
When every day in a new kind of hell
that boy was sent.

He hid his tears from you,
Because you never cared to look beyond the smile.
He called you his friend, because he was afraid
That he had to stay alone all this while.

Yes he had issues, and I guess it was his problem
That he wasn’t like you all.
He wasn’t perfect like you,
He was just another feeble being, who was
Crushed under your shoe.

You had all the fun, while all he wanted
Was to run.
Run away from all of you, and he did
Only to realize the new land is again,
Full of people who’ll ridicule him.

School and college it was all the same,
And I guess he knew, it'll always be him
On whom everyone'll put the blame.

He still continued with his journey, 
in search of someone to call his. 
While everyone just made it a habit, 
to give his side of emotions a miss. 

I guess he was wrong, 
i guess that thought in a weak moment was right. 
This world isn't his, he doesn't belong to this place
He will never find the peace, no matter how much he'll fight. 

And all he always wanted,
Was someone who might understand him.
And all he wants,
Is someone who might understand him. 

Tuesday 29 November 2011

Sadho aur ganga ....


Sadho or Sadhu, he's a free soul. He wants to travel across all the geographical boundaries to discover the true meaning of life. And now when the books have failed him while he tried to learn the lessons of humanity. He has again started his journey, to find the true meaning of life and this time he's asking the creations of nature to help him. 

This is a poem series i have started, based on few of my journeys. Let's see where it goes.  

Rishikesh: A holy city in the state of Uttarakhand(also my birthplace), the point where river Ganga finally meets the Great North Indian plains after spending first part of its journey amidst the Himalayas. It's also Sadho's first destination. 

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O sadho, toh fir nikle fir ek naye raste par,
ek patang ki tarah iss aasmaan mein.
Baadlon ke uss paar, insaniyat ke aur kareeb.

Rishikesh o Rishikesh, hari ke desh,
Shaanti ke updesh, ganga ke pawan bhesh.
Aaj Sadho, baithe the ganga ke kinaare.

“Ganga maiyya” Sadho bole
“Tum kal kal yun behti ho,
Na jaane aisi kaunsi baat hai jo
Chup chaap yunhi kehti ho”

Ganga maiyya muskurayi aur boli,
“Sun sadho, behna hi toh jeewan hai
Hum sab apne chune hue raste pe bahe hi toh jaate hain,
Yunhi behte behte dharti ma ki inn ragon mein
Apne nishaan chod jaate hain.
Par sadho, tu kyun itna chinta magn hai aaj?”

“Maiyya aaj ek safar pe nikal pada hun,
Zindagi kya hai yeh jaanane pe ada hun.”

Maiyya muskura kar boli, “ek kahani sunati hun, dhyan se sun na.”

“Yahin se kuch duur, main jab dharti ma ki
Kokh se nikalti hun, barf sang main pighalti hun.
Aur fir inn vaadiyon mein hi mera bachpan beet ta hai,
Inn pahadon sang khel khel mann pavitra ho uthta hai.
Bachpan sa paawan, iss duniya mein kuch nahin.”

“Fir bachpan ki masti ke baad, rishiyon ke tat
Se jo mera yauwan shuru hota hai.
Toh iss banjar dharti par saawan shuru hota hai.
Apni raftaar ko barkaraar rakhte hue main
Chali jaati hun ek mazil ki oor.
Par apni masti ki raftaar ko barkaraar rakhte hue…”

“Fir kuch tham si jaati hun,
Jo apne parivaar ke pass ja pahunchti hun.
Mere bachche, jo yahan se kahin duur
Sangam parr mujhse sikhsha paate hain.
Hamesha ki tarah, unke paap dhokar unhe chalna sikhati hun.
Kabhi dhyaan se sunna kya kya paath main padhati hun.”

“Aur fir….”

“Aur fir ye budhapa jo cha jaata hai,
Ek halchal si macha jaata hun.
Ab main apne khayalon mein doobi,
Apne andar ki gehrayii mein bahut kuch khojti hun.
Ab main zindagi ko aur jyaada samajh paati hun,
Aur jo bachi kuchi zindagi hai,
Usse apne logon ke beech bitati hun.
Jo kuch batora hai zindagi ke raaste mein,
Sab apne iss parivaar mein baat jaati hun.”

“Aur fir ek din aata hai, jab mujhe kho jaana hai
Aakhir iss safar ke ant mein hum sabko,
Ussi ek anant mein hamesha ke liye so jaana hai.” 

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Happy are those for whom 
journey is more important than the destination. 
Learned are those for whom 
the journey is their only destination. 

Monday 28 November 2011

Magic


One more day, and one more night
One more conversation,
One more dream, yeah right.

I guess, it’s happening again
I don’t know, it’s just taking over me
That wonderful feeling is again setting me free

Is it you? Ofcourse it is.
And it is your soul, and your voice
And the way you play piano, or the way you sing
I don’t know about other stuff,
But I guess it might be the smile on my face, you bring.

But then, how can I be so sure,
Well even I don’t know neither I wanna know more
I just wanna float again, in this feeling so sure

That maybe, I guess yes maybe
I think my heart is saying something me,
Well just read my silent lips, oh wait
Or just look into my eyes and that’s your face you’ll see.

Sunday 27 November 2011

I guess i love you...


Came a gust of the wind in the morning,
it was carrying a fragrance.
Wind said it's from her,
i guess it belongs to you my darling.

With sun rays, came an excitement
to put a smile on my face.
Sun said, "Hey, she likes to see you smile."
I think sun isn’t lying. Is it my darling?

With the rain, came a sweet noise
Rain said, "I’m trying to mimic her.
So you don’t miss her."
But why do I miss you so much my darling?

With the moonlight came a dream.
The dream spoke to me about you.
It asked, “Hey Abhi why do you miss her?”
I explained, how much I love my darling.

And now, when I've closed my eyes.
You are near me and whispering,
"Don’t you worry, cause am always with you."

I know you are, my darling.

Friday 25 November 2011

Are they made for each other?


There she is across the sea
In a city of dunes, carefree yet restless
With the eyes like emerald
And a smile as soothing
As your most beautiful thought...

And there he is, from the land of mountains
In search of that boisterous river
Which will mingle in his arms
And cuts across his roughness,  
to create a beautiful scenery...

As the sand slides down her fingers
She longs for someone to fulfill her thirst
Battle against her passion, with his charm....  

Just like he’s longing for someone
To come and destroy the coldness inside him
With a feeling so warm....

Are they made for each other? 

Thursday 24 November 2011

सुनो एक बात कहनी है....

"सुनो एक बात कहनी है"
हाँ बोलो ना
"वो तारा देख रहे हो"
हाँ
"उसे बस देखते रहो"

फिर धीरे से मेरे पास आई थी वो
और अपने होंठों को मेरे कान के करीब
लायी थी वो

"कुछ भी मत कहना तुम"
क्या हुआ?
"चुप, बस उस तारे को देखते रहो"
ह्म्म्म
"Abhi, I love you"
पर...
"ना, देखो कसम है कुछ न कहना,
मुझे पता है तुम क्या बोलोगे"
लेकिन सुनो...
"ना, आज मेरी रात है,
बस यूँही मेरे साथ बैठे रहो
जो भी कहना है फिर कभी कहना
अभी बस मेरा साथ सहो"

"बस इतनी सी कहानी थी,
मुझे लगा पूरी लव स्टोरी सुनाओगे"
हाँ यार बस इतनी सी ही कहानी थी,
मेरे पहले प्यार की
"अरे Abhi, लेकिन उसके आगे क्या हुआ?"

बस उस रात हमने उन् तारों को देखा
और अगले दिन....
वो भी उन् तारों में शामिल हो गयी

"Sunoh ek baat kehni hai"
Haan bolo na
"Woh taara dekh rahe ho?"
Haan
"bas usse dekhte raho"

Fir dheere se mere pass aayi thi woh
aur apne hothon ko mere kaan ke pass
laayi thi woh

"Kuch bhi mat kehna tum"
Kya hua?
"Chup, bas uss taare ko dekhte raho"
hmmm
"Abhi, i love you"
par....
"Na, dekho kasam hai kuch na kehna
mujhe pata hai tum kya bologe."
lekin sunoh...
"Na, aaj meri raat hai
bas yunhi mere saath baithe raho
jo bhi kehna hai, fir kabhi kehna
abhi bas mera saath saho."

"Bas itni si kahani thi,
mujhe laga poori love story sunaoge."
Haan yaar bas itni si kahani thi,
mere pehle pyaar ki
"Arrey Abhi, lekin uske aage kya hua?"

Bas uss raat humne unn taaron ko dekha,
aur agle din.....
woh bhi unn taaron mein shamil ho gayi.

Wednesday 23 November 2011

मेरी पहली वाली किस...


Baat 2 saal purani, dost ke bhai ki shaadi ki hai
Jawaani ki dehleez pe kadam rakhe the
Doston ne iss baar thodi khabar li thi humari
Kyunki 20 saal ki umar mein bhi aam thode kam chakhe the...

Bola tha iss baar shaadi mein teri
Ek girlfriend banwayenge
Aakhirkar bachche se aadmi tujhe zaroor banayenge....

Ab marta kya na karta,
Haan mein maine bhi haan mila di thi
Thoda darra hua toh tha hi
Par dost chodo, unki gfs ne hi
Thodi bahut practice kara di thi  ....

Suna tha dost ke bhai ki saali 
Pe sab fida hain
Humne toh thaan li thi ek baar
Na mudke usko dekhenge
Jahan pehle se hi 20 log jama hon
Uss alaav par haath na sekenge....

Shaadi waale din ke liye,
Dost ne khud mere liye
ek special sherwani silwayi thi
Jab sherwani pehen ke bahar nikle
Toh doston ke kuch friends ne seeti bajayi thi....

“Chamak raha hai bada aaj,
Beta aaj khali haath wapas nahin aana.”
Par yaar…
“Na na, dekh aaj shaadi mein ek se badhkar ek hongi,
Aisa mauka haath se na ganwaana.”...

Dost ki hidayat,
Ek kaan se sun dusre se nikali thi
Aakhir mujhe jaise sharmile ladke se
Bhala koi ladki kahan patne waali thi....

Khair, sab bhool bhaal baraat sang
Hum sawaar hue the
Humein kya pata tha ki humari peeth peeche
Humari setting ke plans tayaar hue the...

“Beta woh dekh, woh hai badi saali
Woh toh hai 25+ doston waali.
Aur woh choti saali, woh hum logon waali.”
Par sun itna lamba haath main kahan
Maar paunga
Itni sundar ladki ke saamne, 2 min na tik paunga
“Abbey ladka, hai ki ladki. Punjabiyon ke naam par dhabba hai,
Saala na daaru na ladki, beta tu toh bhagwaan ke saamne
Jalaane waali agarbatti ka dabba hai.”...

“Chod isse yaar, ye na kuch kar payega.
Saala bhari mehfil mein, hum doston ke group ka naam dubayega.”
Baat dost ki sun ek minute ke liye
sharam se paani paani ho gaya tha main...

Par baat toh wohi thi, itne saalon mein
Ek bhi na pat paayi thi
Aur jo 2-3 pasand aayi, woh humare
Doston ne hi khud humse churayi thi....

Confidence pura low tha
Aur socializing skills bhi hamara so so tha
Ab toh akele hi raat guzarni padegi
Ye soch kar pareshaan baitha tha main...

Shaadi toh kab ki chalu ho gayi thi
Ice cream aur cold drinks se apna
Mann behla raha tha
Saamne dekha toh, dost ka chota bhai
Choti saali sang batiya raha tha...

Lo ji katt gayi patang, ab toh
Chicken ke leg piece sang raat bitayenge
Hum jaise buddhu iss jamane mein
Kahan koi ladki pata payenge...

“Sun”, kaan mein aakar dost fusfusaya tha
“Dekh beta chote waale ko main
Ghar bhej raha hun kuch samaan lane.
Mauka achcha hai, ja apna jaal bichale.”
Dost ne aakar khabar toh achchi di thi...

“Hello I am Abhi. Aap bhabhi ji,
I mean, dulhan ki choti behen hai na.”
Haan mein sira hila woh thoda muskurayi thi
Sach kehta hun dost, uski aankhon ne
Shaareer mein 440 volt waali current daudayi thi....

Tabhi mere mobile par ek sms aaya
“Terrace pe pada hai guitar,
Ab toh baaji maar ja yaar.”...

“Suno kaafi boring si hai shaadi,
Chalo thoda tehel aate hain.
Suna hai chat se view achcha aata hai,
Wahin ka nazara le aate hain.”...

Sharmati hui, usne hamari haan mein haan milayi
Aur fir apni nazrein uske rishtedaaron ki taraf ghumayi
“Raasta saaf hai, chalo let’s go.” Fir boli woh...

“Seriously yaar, kitni boring shaadi hai,
Upar se sab ladkon ki flirting zaari hai.
Main khush hun ki tum unn jaise nahin,
Jo mere peeche pade nahin.”...

Ye toh atom bomb gira tha
Beta ab kaise daal galegi,
Kahan pata tha ye itni shaani niklegi....

Tabhi nazar ghuma dekha
Toh saamne rakha tha ek guitar.
Aur boli woh, “wow, I know how to play that.”

Bas fir kya tha, baaton baaton mein
Usne uthaya tha guitar
Kaafi achcha bajaati thi woh, par zabardast planning ki thi doston ne
Kyunki bahut besura gaati thi woh....

“Suno main thoda bahut gaa leta hun.”
Bol humne, mauke pe aisa chauka lagaya tha
Agle 1 ghante tak saath baith humne
Fir sur se sur milaaya tha.....

Uski aankhon mein ab alag si chamak thi
Aur awaaz mein bhi uski ek khanak thi.
Laga tha jaise saara confidence wapas aa gaya
Iss bachche par ek aadmi ka bhoot cha gaya...

“Kya hua, itne pass kyun aa rahe ho.”
Kyunki tum pal pal mujhe saata rahi ho
“Par main aise kya kiya?”
Pichle ek 1 ghante se kare hi toh jaa rahi ho, Jiya
“Aisa kya keh rahe ho tum? Darr lag raha hai mujhe.”
Par main hun saath, kiska darr tujhe
“Aur agar kisine dekh liya.”
Terrace ka darwaza band karke aaya hun.
“Par hum ek dusre ko sahi se jaante bhi nahin.”
Toh jaan jao.
“Please tum aur pass mat aao.”
Par main toh aa gaya.
“Apni saansein meri saanson se na takraao.”
Kyun, kuch ho raha hai
“Haan bahut kuch….”

Bas baaki ka aapko kya batana,
Aur ab aapse bhi kya chipaana.
Sirf uss raat hi the saath hum,
Aur fir woh kahan aur main kahan.  
Par aaj bhi yaad hai, woh pehli kiss,
Jab andheri raat ko, taaron tale baithe the wahan.....

Tuesday 22 November 2011

Na jaane...


Na jaane kyun aaj aankhon mein ek nami si hai
Aaj fir uski kuch kami si hai.
Na jaane kyun lagta hai jaise abhi hi ki toh baat hai
Jab woh mere saath thi.
Aur fir achanak, hawaa ki tarah udd gayi....

Na jaane aaj kis baag mein
Woh khusbu milegi mujhe
Na jaane aaj fir kiski baaton pe
yunhi muskura paunga main.
Na jaane…

Abhi aansu bas behna hi shuru
Hue the, ki achanak uska ek email aaya
Chehre pe halki muskurahat aayi thi
Uska naam fir padhke.
Email mein poocha tha usne,
Ki uski purani kitaab jo aaj bhi mere yahan padi hai,
Woh lauta sakta hun usse....

Na jaane woh kitaab maine kyun apne pass rakhli thi
Usme ek gulaab bhi pada tha, sukha hua sa
Hamare iss rishte ki tarah.
Aaj bhi uss kitaab ke panno mein
Uski ungliyon ka ehsaas hai.
Na jaane, aaj bhi woh kyun itni khaas hai....

Ab toh na ye aansu tham rahe hain
Na uski yaadon ka silsila.
Abhi abhi hamari kuch purani chats
Padhi maine, bistar ke ussi kone mein baithkar
Jahan uski salvatein aaj bhi maujood hain....

Achcha hai aaj ye laptop hai mere pass,
Warna aaj bhi mere shabd, 
aansuon se bheege hue paper se tapak kar
gayab ho jaate....

Na jaane, aaj bhi woh kyun itni khaas hai… 

Sunday 20 November 2011

My strengths

Today, it feels good to know that I've three precious friends. This year had not been that great, except when i met these three girls.

I have been going through a bad phase at this moment. Therefore, whenever i hit a low, i know that i am just a call away from them. They're always there for me, scolding me, making me laugh, abusing me and pulling my leg whenever i need someone. No matter what they say or do, they always make sure that I spend the rest of my day smiling.

This year, i celebrated my first birthday when i didn't receive any gift. But i guess it's fine because this year i got them as a gift. In fact, today I sing and i write well; somewhere it's because of them. They take care of my emotional side and thus make sure that i don't end up neglecting those small traces of talent i have in me.

I can now safely say they're my strength. Richa, Baavri and Maahi, i love you. 

Saturday 19 November 2011

Dulhan wahi jo piya ghar Gulaab Jamun laaye...


Uske honthon se tapakte ras ko dekh
Uss din mera ye dil dola tha
Haaye kya bataun, iss kadar dard utha tha dil mein
Jab duur baithi hui uss ladki ne,
Gulaab jamun ka dabba khola tha

Chaar mahine ho gaye the
ghar se laut kar aaye hue
laadoo ke jo 4 dabbe diye the maa ne
3 toh chuhe hi kutar gaye

1 dabba jaise taise 2 mahine chalaya tha
1 mahin fir shaant raha mera pet
Par iss Diwali ke mausam ne fir
Kambakhat rulaya tha

Bas thaan li thi
Tabhi jaake 2 dabbe rasmalaai
Aur ek dabba gulaab jamun ka laana tha
Par hamare zalim halwai ko bhi
ussi din hi apne gaon jaana tha

Udaas chehra liye ghar ko wapas aaya tha
Ek haath mein maggi ka packet aur
Dusre mein parle G pakad kar laaya tha
Ye bachelor waali zindagi se uub gaya tha
Shaadi karne ka khayal
Achanak tabhi dimag mein yun chaya tha

Socha kyun na matrimonial khol ek ladki chuni jaaye
Par wahan toh ek se badh kar ek options
Bolo kis kis ki suni jaaye

Kisi ki beti ne ki thi MBBS
Toh kisi ki thi engineer
Kisi ki beti ‘Fair like kartina kaif’
To kisi ki ‘drinks no alcohol just fruit beer’

Koi tha brahman toh koi Rajput
Koi agarwal toh koi Bengali
Kissi ko chahiye tha 6 figure salary ka ladka
Kisi ki thi 6 feet lambe ladke ki demand
Kisi ko chahiye tha alishaan bangla
Toh koi de raha tha dahej mein dukaan

Dukaan sunke sir mera chakraya
Dimag mein ek idea aaya
Kyun na dukaan mein main ek halwai bithaun
Roz taaze taaze gulaab jamun bhi free mein chatt kar jaun

Number dekh uss shaadi ke ishtehaar ka
Phone maine ghumaya tha
Udhar se kisi ne phone utha mere
Idea ko sach karne ka sapna dikhlaya tha

Hafte bhar baad chai pe jaana tha
Bas kisi bhi tarah iss ladki ko apna banana tha
Naya naya suit humne silwaya fir
Gel wel lagake chamakaya sir

Ghar jab unke pahunche toh achche se
Khatirdaari hui thi
Aur tabhi ladki hamare saamne laake khadi
Kardi, ekdum sui si

Socha chalo kuch nahin
Gulaab jamun khila isse mota banaunga
Par in the end shaadi toh
Issi dukaan waali se rachaunga

Ghoonghat dale woh nazdeek mere aa baithi
Maathe se paseena tap tap kar raha tha mere
Socha chalo kuch nahin,
First time waali nervousness hai , yuhin nikal jayegi
Ab toh gulaab jamun sang zindagi bitayi jayegi
Dheere se fir chehra apna
Ghoonghat se nikala tha usne
Ek baar ke liye toh chakra ke girte
Girte bacha

Ladki hai ya ladki ki maa
Ye baat samajh mein hi na aayi
Fir ladki ne haste hue apni umar batayi

Kahan main 22 saal ka, 45 saal ki kunwari
Ke jaal mein jaa fasaa tha
Gulaab jaamun ke liye, ek choti si love story part 2
Banani padegi, kahan pata tha

Bhaaga fir dum daba ke
Ki fir naa aage ka pata tha na peeche ka
Gulaab jaamun jaye bhaad mein
Apni jawaani yun barbaad na karunga
Ek gulaab jaamun ke chakkar mein
Yunhi kisi amma ki mang main na bharunga

Khair aaj fir ghar mein bhooka baitha
Ek kavita likh raha hun
Honthon ko aaj bhi gulaab jamun ka hai intezaar
Bhejdo istehaar agar aapko hai kisi aise ladke ki talaash
Jisse apni biwi se jyaada ho gulaab jamun se pyaar.






Friday 18 November 2011

Iss raat ki bhi ek subah hai..


इस रात को अब गुज़र जाने दो, 
सवेरा जल्द ही अपने रंग दिखलायेगा
इस ख्वाब को उजड़ जाने दो, 
अब हकीकत संग मज़ा कुछ और आएगा...

माथे की इस शिकन से दोस्ती हुई पुरानी, 
अब तो मुस्कराहट को अपना यार बनायेंगे
इन् तारों की छाँव में बहुत जी लिए,
अब तो सूरज के घर आने पर नाचे गायेंगे.... 

अँधेरे में गुमनाम ये ज़िन्दगी,
अब फिर नयी रौशनी की ओर जाती दिख रही है 
आज फिर नए रंगों की दूकान खुल चुकी है,
और खुशियों की डिबिया फिर डिस्काउंट में बिक रही है....

जाओ आज खरीद लाओ उस ख्वाहिश को,
जो कभी दूर से ही सुहानी लगती थी
इस रात को अब गुज़र जाने दो,
और ओढ़ लो फिरसे उस अरमानो वाली चादर को,
जो कभी किसी कोने में पड़ी पुरानी लगती थी.... 


Iss raat ko ab guzar jaane do,
Savera jald hi apne rang dikhlayega.
Iss khwaab ko ujad jaane do,
Ab haqeeqat sang mazaa kuch aur aayega...

Maathe ki iss shikan se dosti hui purani,
Ab toh mukurahat ko apna yaar banayenge.
Inn taaron ki chaanv mein bahut jee liye,
Ab toh suraj ke ghar aane par naache gayenge....

Andhere mein gumnaam ye zindagi,
Ab fir nayi roshni ki oor jaati dikh rahi hai.
Aaj fir naye rangon ki dukaan khul chuki hai,
Aur khushiyon ki dibiya fir discount mein bik rahi hai....

Jaao aaj khareed lao uss khwahish ko,
Jo kabhi duur se hi suhani lagti thi.
Iss raat ko ab guzar jaane do,
Aur odh lo firse uss armaano waali chadar ko,
Jo kabhi kisi kone mein padi purani lagti thi...

Wednesday 16 November 2011

A collection of short ones


Sometimes I just want to cry,
so that she could smile.
I hope she’s smiling right now.

 ********

Hey friend,
I know you’re there
Hiding behind the desk, aren’t you?

Hey friend,
I know you’ll come out anytime.
Look I am hurt, and I need you.

Hey friend,
I know you’re coming out anytime,
I know you’re going to comfort me now.

Hey friend,
I know you’ve died but your memories are still there,
you’re still by my side; you’re still making me smile.

*********

The old pine tree,
it still stands there, behind the park.
It still remembers our first conversation,
and it still recalls the story of our first kiss.

That water fountain at the city center,
it is still the main tourist attraction.
But it misses our small fights,
at 2 AM during the starry nights.

The last desk in the class,
yes our names are still carved on it.
The scent of your shampoo is still present there
where you kept your head down,  just to stare
at me.

That house is still empty,
where the tears which fell from your eyes
when we made love for first time,
are still flowing down the slanted and creaking floor.

That bicycle is still rusting in my backyard,
which I once used to bring flowers
to apologize for every mistake I made.

I still use that cycle to carry those same flowers
every day at 9 AM to the grave,
Where from past 10 years,
you’ve stayed.

*******

Those memories,
I’ll burn them all and smile.
I don’t want to cry anymore,
I don’t want them to be my
emotions’ turnstile.

Those memories,
they’re all gone.
Now I don’t cry,
but I also don’t smile.
Smiling doesn’t make sense,
now that the emotions don’t
have any fence.

********

My guitar and me,
I don’t know how to play it.
But it still loves me.

I just strum it and hum a random tune,
it loves my fingers caressing its strings,
it still hopes that I’ll learn its tunes.

My guitar and me,
we have stayed together during hard times.
And now that the good times are near
it looks at me and smiles, whenever I sing.

My guitar and me,
it wants me to learn a new song today.
It says to me, “I know you love that girl.
Won’t you play a song for her.”

My guitar and me,
we’re the best friends.
We might not know each other perfectly
but we’re still auto tuned to each other.                 

*******

Bless them all,

Bless the smile on his torn lips,
Bless that eye which can’t see
Bless that tongue which can’t speak
Bless that ear which can’t hear
Bless that knee,
which misses its other partner.

But most of all,
Bless those who still smile,
despite their fears and troubles.

Just bless them all, God. 

Tuesday 15 November 2011

Main chala...


Main chala hun aaj bahut duur
khud se duur, sabse duur
iss duniya se bekhabar...

Khair iss duniya ka kya karna
ghutghut ke jeena aur ghut ghut ke marna
na jeena hai ab mujhe, ek pal aur yahan...

Maa tu jab lori sunati thi
neend badi pyaari aati thi.
Maaf kardena mujhe maa
aaj ussi pyaari neend ki talaash mein jaa raha hun....

Behen tu hamesha mujhe hasati thi
par aaj ye saali zindagi har waqt
mujhe rulati hai.
Chahkar bhi na has pata hun yahan
aaj base chale jaa raha hun le jaayein ye kadam jahan....

Kuch der aur chalunga
fir thak kar kahin so jaunga.
Neend iss baar bahut pyaari hogi
maut sang ab meri yaari hogi....

Papa ne kaha tha
ki kahan kuch ban payega.
Keh dena unse ki aaj woh muskurayein
unka beta na aur ab unka naam dubayega....

Dost tujhe bola tha har waqt saath rahunga
maaf karna nahin socha tha
ki tujhse bhi kabhi kuch jhooth kahunga.
Ho sake toh yaad rakhlena
aur sun usko bas itna keh dena
pyaar usse bahut karta tha.....

Ma aaj aankhon se aansu tapak rahe hain
par aaj na ye kadam tham rahe hain.
Yaad teri bahut aa rahi hai ma
kya karun zindagi ye bahut sata rahi hai ma...

Ab aur na jee paunga
bas wahin nadi kinare apne
akhiri kuch pal bitaunga....

Wahin nadi pe hi toh ek pull hai
uspe har 1 ghante mein train aati hai
ussi ke saamne kood jaunga....

Ma aur behen, tum mat aana
mujhe kata hua na dekh paoge....

Maine tum sab ko bahut sataya tha
ma tumhe toh kitna jyaada rulaya tha.
Ab apne aansu ponch lena
apne aapko dilaasa dena
ab toh bas meri achchi yaadein hi hongi....

Maa ye paper thoda gila ho gaya hai
woh aansu kuch jyaada hi nikal gaye.
Kya karun pyaar tumse bahut karta hun
par jeene se bahut darta hun....

Suno ab mujhe jaana hoga
train aa rahi hai
uske neeche aana hoga...

Kehte hain pata nahin lagta
ki kab kat kar marr jaate hain.
Maa tum pareshaan na hona
mujhe bilkul dard nahin hoga.....

Bas yunhi kuch pal mein marr jaunga
ho sake toh agla janam lekar
milne kabhi aaunga...

Main chala.


(Fir uss khat ko peeche palat kar dekha tha maine) 

Chala hi toh gaya tha main, 
railgaadi bhi aayi thi. 
Na jaane fir kyun ruk gaya. 

Ek alag si sihran hui thi, 
laga jaise ek nayi aag
jagi hai iss seene mein. 

Agar aaj marr gaya toh, 
kya haasil karlunga main. 

Marke bhi toh ek failure hi kehlaunga, 
jeeke shayad kuch kar hi jaunga. 

Aur nahin bhi kar paaya toh, 
ek din toh marna hi hai. 
Toh fir kyun na kuch aur
ladaiyaan ladun, thoda aur muskura dun. 

Kuch duur aur fir chalunga 
aaj lagta hai ki kuch banunga. 
Marna badi aasaan hai dost, 
jeena hi toh asli khel hai. 

Dost intezaar kar rahe honge 
woh college ke bahar chai ki tapri pe. 
Bade din se toh unke saath chai bhi nahin pi. 

Aaj usse raat movie bhi dikhane le jaunga, 
kal interview bhi hai, shayad kuch baat ban jaaye. 

Khair na bhi bani toh kya, 
woh kehti hai main muskurata hun
toh sab khil khil sa jaata hai. 
Kya pata woh sach hi kehti ho. 

Zindagi mera intezaar kar,
main fir wapas aa raha hun. 

Main chala...

Tell her...


If she comes do tell her
that beyond all this chaos,
i am still waiting for her
while sitting on a bench made of our memories.

Tell her that her jokes
are still making me smile.
Just like her voice
which is still ringing in my ears.

Do tell her that her hairs strands
are still lying on the bed sheet.
And her soothing fragrance
is still lingering at the corner of my pillow.

Tell her that I still miss those walks
on the river’s bank,
as we kissed in the golden light of setting sun.

That cold wind which came
from the other side of the river,
it still asks me about her.
Tell her that somewhere near the river
sycamore tree we planted together, is still waiting for her.

Those broken mud cups
in which we drank tea,
I still have the pieces of those broken cups.

Tell her that I still haven’t
stopped drinking tea,
even though as always 
i still burn my tongue while having it.

I am lying here in the hospital bed
and doctor says it won’t be too long.
If she's late then
do tell her, that I waited for her. 

My last breath carried a hope
that she’ll be there by my side.
I waited for her, for the rest of my life
Tell her…

Monday 14 November 2011

Hey beautiful soul...


It’s early morning,
With a cup of coffee in my hand
I look at the foggy streets of pune.

A gust of cold early morning wind
Touches my neck, and along with it
Brings some memories of her.

I saw her in the dream last night, yes again
Like an angel, she walked towards me
Amidst all the insanity, the only one sane

And then this thought hits me, like bang
All my fears and insecurities come rushing.
As somewhere deep in me my deepest worries,
Again sang.

They whisper about all those failed relationships,
About all those failed moments of my love intense.
Will I be successful this time?
Will I be again shedding tears once she’ll fade away,
like a soothing fragrance?

The black clouds of tension
Cover me
And slowly the droplet of doubts
Start raining.
Is she the one? What should I do?
And in this mess of thoughts I didn’t realize,
When the cup of coffee left my hand. 

Boom, came this loud noise of shattered glass.
And near my toe were lying broken pieces few,
With the warm liquid flowing freely towards,
A destination, it wasn’t intended to.

As I pick up a shattered glass, the thought hits me.

Who are we? A combination of star dust fallen from the sky.
We’re just souls trying to meet our another end,
Without any reason, we never ask why? 

We just roam around, in search of the perfect one,
She is that one, I am that one.
We’re just two souls, who’re just half way,
From being the perfect one.

She’s sleeping right now,
And maybe lost in her beautiful dreams.
She has her wishes, she wants to fly high
She wants to soar through this big blue sky.

Who am I to stop her? Who am I to worry?
It’s just that she shared a part of her life,
With me amidst all this hurry.

Who knows if this time no one leaves?
Who knows if we’ll stay together,
till our last breaths.

I won’t stop her from dreaming,
I won’t stop her from fulfilling her dreams.
I like her, or maybe love her somewhere inside me,
I won’t be the rock in front of her violet streams.

I’ll be that wind which will flow with her
Till the time she’ll want.
And I’ll be thankful once even if she’ll decide,
To part ways,
Thankful till in her heart this man stays.

Then past this horizon, she’ll fly,
Like a vagabond in search of that perfect landscape.
I know one day she’ll find one,
When her waters will touch a beautiful Cape.

I like her for who she is, I like her for being a beautiful soul,
I don’t like her as a trophy I won,
Putting her in a showcase is not my goal.

She’s just a wandering soul,
who tried to mingle with mine.
Like two dancers,
in each other’s arms our souls entwine.

We’re on a journey to find if it’s
The most beautiful dance of our life.

And then she might fly away, if she wants
To achieve that mesmerizing high.
Because hey beautiful soul,

You belong to me as much as you belong to this sky.