I’m scared and a shy guy. I know nothing about the world, not like you do. I’m petrified,
of these roads you travel. I think I will stumble. Did you ever fall down? Did
it hurt? I feel the pain too; it’s of a different kind. I don’t have any wounds
to show, actually I do have some wounds, but I can’t show it to anyone. They
won’t see them, or maybe pretend to not see them.
They say
wounds are ugly, are they? Teachers told me to hide them; people will laugh. Why
does everyone laugh at us? We all have the same wounds, almost same; ok not
same, but still wounds are wounds. Mine isn’t more painful than yours, but it
still hurts, yours too I guess.
Do you cry
when it hurts? I do cry, and no one wipes my tear, but then I have my own hands
to wipe them. I sometimes wipe others’ tears too. I wonder if you do that as
well. Do you make them smile?
I like when
they smile, even when they pretend to smile. It’s like they’re winning the war
that’s going inside them. There’s a war we’re always fighting, sometimes we
win, sometimes we lose. Are you winning yours today?
I am afraid
of dark. Are you too? I find it very comforting, more than I’d prefer. I feel
like submitting myself to it, just stay there forever. Like an unwritten story
lingering in your mind. Like a letter torn to pieces, it exists but not for
whom it was meant. Like a secret hidden in a corner.
I know you
like secrets. You like sharing them? Share one with me, the most beautiful one;
say it aloud, for yourself.
Honest.
ReplyDeletei always like writing like this. meandering and almost like talking to your own self. :)
ReplyDeleteIt's like you're talking to yourself aloud. :)
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful. I can read it as if someone is sitting there and asking me or maybe I am reading a letter...
ReplyDeleteI love this style of writing of yours :)